"...my earnest expectation and hope that in nothing I shall be ashamed, but with all boldness, as always, so now also Christ will be magnified in my body, whether by life or by death."
My Utmost For His Highest. "...my earnest expectation and hope that in nothing I shall be ashamed..." We will all feel very much ashamed if we do not yield to Jesus the ares of our lives He has asked us to yield to Him. It's as if Paul is saying, "My determined purpose is to be mu utmost for His highest-- my best for His glory." To reach that level of determination is a matter of of the will, not of debate or of reasoning. It is absolute and irrevocable surrender of the will at that point. an undue amount of thought and consideration for ourselves is what keeps us from making that decision, although we cover it up with the pretense that it is others that we are considering. When we think seriously about what it will cost others if we obey the call of Jesus, we tell God He doesn't know what our obedience will mean. Keep to the point---He does know. Shut out every other thought and keep yourself before God in this one thing only---my utmost for His highest. I am determined to obey absolutely and entirely for Him alone.
My unstoppable Determination for His Holiness. "Whether it means life or death---it makes no difference!" (see 1:21) Paul was determined that noting would stop him from doing exactly what God wanted. But before we choose to follow God's will, a crisis must develop in our lives. This happens because we tend to be unresponsive to God's gentle nudges. He brings us to the place where He asks us to be our utmost for Him and we begin to debate. He then providentially produces a crisis where we have to decide---for or against. That moment becomes a great crossroads in our lives. If a crisis has come to you on any front, surrender your will to Jesus absolutely and irrevocably.